This is because the two of the men in my life have dismissed me because I do not fit the ideals of what an ideal women should look like. Their spouses dismiss, disrespect my existence. My father and younger brother believe that white people are the epitome of all that is right, just and beautiful in the world. But I am far more intelligent per IQ than their spouses. They have allowed them to challenge me and I have respectfully placed them in their presences. Because of my skin tone they (father and brother) stopped speaking to me. My brother openly told people he is embarrassed by my existence. His wife publicly stated she hates black women, because they are stupid, nasty and lazy.