Brought up to believe my Mexican heritage was secondary to my white heritage. Didn’t learn Spanish, didn’t learn culture. As a young woman I identify with being Mexican only when I am allowed to. For example, on a jury questionnaire, I check “white” because I fear I don’t have “enough” Mexican ancestry to identify otherwise. In all other aspects, I identify as a non-Spanish speaking Mexican. I see myself this way but others do not. My Mexican ancestors had light skin. Mine is golden brown.