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Their Mormon ancestor’s genealogy was “mysterious.”

Judith McConkie,
Salt Lake City, UT.

The sentence describes our family’s conflicted past. As liberal Democrats in the 1970s my husband and I considered the ban on blacks holding Mormon priesthood to be ridiculous and insidious — a reason to leave the faith. We held on and held out faith that things would change, slowly perhaps, but they would change. We are part of a prominent family in the church. We have alternately rejoiced (that hardly covers our euphoria) and then felt terrible shame. How could we properly show ourselves as sincere penitents without taking on a tone of supercilious idiots. Last summer our brother-in-law had his DNA mapped. The map showed markers common to Black Africans. In checking his genealogy he found a woman who had in one census had a name and connection to a black family in the south. The state’s birth certificate listed her as “mulatto” . After she joined the church in the late 19th century, her name has changed and her race is “white” The brother-in-law remembers his generous father describing her life and personality something like this: My grandmother was a kind and very loving woman whose life story is “shrouded in mystery.” For months now, we have sincerely envied his heritage; he and his children and we are actually thrilled. And we older members of the family know of the consequences of his father’s characterization of his grandmother’s past. I cannot adequately tell you how many times we have turned and examined this woman’s decision to literally alter her “race card” and her grandson’s decision to leave it alone, to let it be mysterious. We who found life partners in the Mormon church in the 1960s understand how his life would have been entirely different. Stunning really.

Privilege is Ability to Choose Blindness

Hannah Oh,
Provo, UT

I grew up thinking that “colorblindness” was laudable.
To be colorblind was to be “not a racist”.
When people brought up race to me, I thought how misguided they were to obsess over race instead of choosing to ignore race and look at people individually.

Then, one day, I was walking in the park with my husband, a Korean immigrant. We were pushing my sweet, beautiful 8 month old baby in her stroller, enjoying the summer and the perfectly manicured lawn and trees.

Suddenly, I remember hearing a truck revving nearby, and then I heard someone scream out at me.

I tried to ignore it, hoping I’d imagined it. My husband and I were walking faster, maybe just matching paces, maybe both racing forward. We started making stilted smalltalk.

Finally, he said, “You heard it, didn’t you?”

I started crying. “Yes.”

The young men had shouted at me, the white woman, “Hey, what are you doing with those Ch**ks?!”

He said that not just about my husband, who was minding his own business, but about our perfect, innocent baby.

That was the day I realized what white privilege is: White privilege is the ability to be colorblind. It is the ability to be ignorant of racism, because it is avoidable.

My daughters and my son will never have white privilege.

Being colorblind is a choice….but only for some.

What does color say about intentions?

Harlee Woods,
Vernal, UT

I have never really understood why the color of people’s skin would affect the way that they act. This summer I went to the Turks and Caicos Islands, most of the people on the island were black. Every employee at our resort was also black. Before I went to Turks this summer I never really had a lot of interactions with colored people. I had never had much of an opinion of colored people but had always put them in the same stereotype that society does. The only remembrance of an interaction that I had with a colored person was a robbery that I witnessed by two black men. That’s no reason to stereotype all colored people but that was the only interaction that I had. Many white men and people of all races commit crimes every day, but I found it ironic that the one time I witnessed a robbery it was two black men. After I went to Turks my whole perspective changed. Every employee at our resort was black, and I have never met more kind and hard-working people in my life. The picture that I have attached is a picture of one of the main waitresses that help my travel group. She is the kindest, funniest, and the smartest person that I have ever met. I realized that not all “black” people are the same, and the same goes for white people. We all come from different families and cultures. Why should we let the color of people’s skin affect our thought process about them and what their personality is? After this experience, I have started to branch out more, and not just with colored people but everyone. We all want friends and to feel loved and appreciated, so why let our outside appearance affect who we meet, and how we judge others?

A culture lost. Lost within me?

Leah Pepion,
Kaysville, UT.

Slowly, generation by generation my Blackfeet culture is being lost, stolen, given up, handed over. Will the Native American culture be buried beneath the earth, beneath the rivers, lost in the sea of suburbs and tv? Can I fill my bones, skin and body up with enough of my delicate culture to make a difference? Let’s share our stories, hidden deep within our bones. Passed down from blood to blood. Let’s shout to the sky, moon and stars that we are here, that our culture is pulsating within us and that we are not lost!

#NAtiveAmerican #BlackfeetTribe #Student #SLCC

I always think “don’t be threatening”.

DSCF2907Kevin Moses,
Logan, UT.

As a 6’3″, young, Black man, at all times I am painfully aware of my presence in a room and the constant strain of worrying about being perceived as threatening is exhausting. I’m incredibly friendly, and the dissonance that comes from people assuming otherwise hurts.

Who we were vs now

Ricky,
Salt-Lake City, UT

I am proud to be black yet I am embarrassed by other black sometimes. I have been fired many times just for standing out as a black man with intelligence that seemingly intimidates other races who assume that I am ignorant and should be inferior to them.

It annoys me that black people aren’t in positions of power within most organizations. This makes the path to success damn near impossible or very, very hard. Reality is most racists are driven by self-preservation that’s a psychological fact with this information you can understand why they like to keep their people employed versus another race.

I should also add that brainwashing has been used for centuries to create a bad image for black men and certain other races as well. The conundrum is this effects the blacks who are looking to move up socioeconomically. It seems as if you can’t win when you are playing on someone else’s field it’s like a soccer game or a football game you are away and another race is home with more fans in their stands.

This is why I am embarrassed when I realize that black people don’t control the labor force in the way that Hispanics Asians and Caucasians have done for decades now if not longer. Until we can become the owners and supervisors of companies black progress will continue to be haunted.

It is not easy taking the crap of another race when you see them talk to their own people with dignity and respect. This means it’s not as simple as letting it go in one ear and out the other when sometimes it crosses into the humanizing characteristics. If blacks really love each other like they pretend to maybe they’ll start to take notice to the fact they aren’t the decision makers.

I’m 28 years old and I am fed up with being pushed around by every other race including my own when it comes to moving forward in life. It feels as if others would rather see me dead than playing the game we call life. This may not make a difference however it felt great to write and hope it can change the lives of future generations to come.

We used to be somebody, we used to be a great group of individuals and honestly Dr. Martin Luther King was unfortunately murdered in vain. Harriet Tubman’s endeavors was unfortunately in vain.

Enough is enough, please get it together because we’re dying out here.

But, Why can’t you speak Spanish?

Tiffany Higbee,
Logan, UT

I’m mixed. I have a mother from Peru and a father from Idaho. I was born and raised here in the United States. I know a little bit of Spanish but I am far from fluent. Because of my appearance, people assume I’m fluent and I’m constantly being spoken to in Spanish first. When I can’t respond, I constantly get questioned why I can’t speak Spanish despite being “brown”.

Thank you for pointing that out.

Lani Broederlow,
Salt Lake City, UT.

I am Polynesian. I have been told that my appearance does not reflect my last name. It is of Dutch descent and the funny thing is, it’s not even my last name; it’s my husband’s. It’s strange how we tend to sort each other into categories and labels. I don’t know that we will ever stop.

I’m done with all the fights

Cara,
UT.

I have been having debates with my husband for a long time. We have spoken about how there is trained racism and acknowledge white privilege to a point. There are still one points that do not make total sense to us but we are tired. We have best friends who are of other colors who have both been the victim and the perpetrator. I am caucasian due to my Irish/french/spanish genes. I don’t understand anymore. I don’t understand why we can’t all just act like humans and label ourselves as human. Most of the Africans and African Americans I have met are very successful people, very funny and have excellent bone structure. I don’t see a persons skin though the last few days I have been trying if only for a better chance to observe what I am confused about. My whole life I was taught to treat people as people. Yet in the last years people have been rioting about crime and hate. I feel almost like the world in regressing into a terrible version of the post civil war era. I never want that to happen. But right now I am terrified of saying the wrong thing to be called a racist. I don’t feel I am. I have worked on projects with almost every culture and skin color through my life. I just don’t understand anymore why we can’t all just be human and treat each other like humans.

America’s Dominant Race is HUMAN Race

Son-and-his-cousinSarah Sanchez,
Midvale, UT.

I am Hispanic, black and European but you couldn’t tell by looking at me and I am okay with that. I believe that there may always be a larger number of a particular race through out America but that does not make them the majority nor minority. I I feel that no matter what color you are or where you came from we are all brothers and sisters of the Human Race.

I didn’t choose to be white

Amelia,
Salt Lake City, UT

I understand that I am nothing. I’m a worthless piece of trash, a waste of a human life. There are many who hate me. Some don’t even know me. I’m a slow learner, sure, hate me for that. I’m annoying sometimes. Hate me for that. I messed up. Hate me for that. But thousands of people hate me, just because I’m white. I didn’t choose to be white. No matter what race, I would have lived the life I live now. Just because I’m white doesn’t mean I have a perfect and privileged life. Anyone can be oppressed. Anyone can be terrified of the world. Anyone can be hurt for what they are, not who they are. I used to be able to escape my problems by playing a game for a few minutes. Leave reality behind and focus on a game that is enjoyable for everyone. Now, not even the games are safe. Leave people alone, do your own thing, keep a low profile, and there are still people screaming through the chat that they wish white people were never made. I’m scared to leave my own house nowadays. I’m terrified to open my mouth. America is supposed to be a place where everyone is safe and equal. Not where shops and businesses are destroyed, just because the owners had lighter skin. Yes, there are racists. I get it. But not all white people are racist, and forcing them to say they are doesn’t solve anything.

My fear exceeds yours, white people.

Kokujin Cameron
Salt Lake City, UT

When I was in kindergarten and in class, I had to use the restroom. The teacher had forgotten and I was unaware but there was a girl using the restroom already. The bathroom is part of the classroom and has it’s own corridor which leads down a hallway to a toilet out of your line of sight until you get to the end of the hallway. I didn’t realize a girl was on that seat until I got there. Out of manners, because I had them even as a child, I said, “I’m sorry. I’ll leave. You’re using the bathroom.” and the girl cheerfully retorted with,”Oh, no. It’s ok. You can just sit on me and use it.” In our innocence we both were unaware of what was happening, but the teacher who’d finally realized her mistake when to the restroom, took me to the principal’s office and had me reprimanded and punished. That’s just the first experience when I’m young that show that I WILL be treated differently in life because of the color of my skin. Later, in the 4th grade while I was living in Greenwood, Mississippi, where I was born and raised…, we had a new student come into our class. She was white and she stuck out as the minority in our class. Because of this, NO ONE wanted to befriend her. No one wanted to be nice to her or socialize with her, except me. We learned each others names, I showed her dorky comics I drew in class, and we chased each other…LIKE KIDS. But I accidentally touched her chest, thought nothing of it, and was called out for it by a fellow classmate who stated to the teacher when she asked why I was distracted ,”..’Cause he touch that white girl titty!” and with that I was sent again to the principal’s office where I was punished for something without even understanding what I was being punished for. These are just my crappy experiences. I must mention one of someone I admire that rings out, but a young entertainer was threatened with his life just because he wanted to play the role of a white character while he himself is black (Childish Gambino). The sheer fact that white people can say to *US*, black people or any other person of color, “Don’t play Peter Parker. He’s white and you can’t take that from us” shows that despite all the centuries of us having our culture and heritage stripped away from us and how HARD we’ve had to struggle to regain it even in the 70’s white people still can dismiss our argument with their narcissistic superiority and treat us worse than second-class citizens; like children. There’s nothing worse than being made to think that your experiences are not relevant or unimportant. One night, at 2am, I left my friend’s apartment to walk across the street to go to the store. I could throw a rock at the store, literally, but 2 minutes after being outside a cop pulled, flashed his lights, and announced on an intercom “Puts your hands in the air and get in the car.” Respectfully, I do so anyway, but the fact that cops invoke this fear and have the power to disregard human rights and DETAIN an individual with such ease means that I must fit into the bullshit picture of society that is woven for me in order to survive. I live in a world where if I speak up and say “What you’re doing to me is wrong!” I can be punished for speaking up for myself more than a white person would be punished. There was a white woman ON THE NEWS simply because she called the president a nigger and said she hopes he gets assassinated. This speaks out about our society. Of course SOME people will look at that woman like she’s a dumbass, but who is aware of the number of people that agree with her? Or don’t see that there’s anything wrong with what she’s saying? I don’t know, but I have to assume at least 65% of the population of America (white people) can potentially fall into this category. White people don’t fuckin’ have this fear. They don’t have to fear a “black” authority coming behind them and telling them how disrespectful what they do or so is to the ancestors of black americans everywhere. It’s honestly unfair and unjust, but the way it is. I don’t believe in this divide but it doesn’t make it any less existential.

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