Growing up going back and forth with parents was confusing especially being as young as I was. I was moving from a household full of fluent Spanish speakers who only spoke Spanish, from a home where we spoke nothing but English. I grew up to only understand the Spanish language, yet i could not speak it as well as my cousins, aunts, and uncles could. Now that i’m older its pretty embarrassing not being able to communicate with my “Mexican side” of the family. I got bullied by my Mexican family for not being “Mexican enough” only cause I wasn’t able to speak Spanish as everyone else could. I’m now very self-conscious of my Spanish speaking skills and I forever wish I learn how to speak fluent Spanish. I’m considered a white-washed Mexican because I’m unable to speak as well as the rest of my family. I feel like the black sheep of the family.