Rosalia Roger.
Even at 43 years old, it still makes me second guess if I am enough when people are shocked that I am a stay at home parent that chose to homeschool my 5 children and earn two degrees while being an ARMY wife that had ambition to achieve my goals through so much obstacles. But it has chipped away on my mental health because my life was not easy to begin with being a first generation child of immigrants. It meant I had to work harder to fit in and to be accepted. Still today where I work when I am overlooked for positions where my degrees are preferred and the person selected has just the minimum requirements…It makes me question “Why am I not enough?” “When will someone see past my medical accomodations, my race, my stay at home experience and see that I have a lot to offer?” “Why don’t they see that my smile is a front for the lifetime of disappointment of never being enough?” “Why can’t I just accept that I will never be enough?”
But what keeps me going is that I want my children to know that they should be enough and that fitting in is not needed because their education and experience will be enough. I work through my personal conflicts because I need for my children and their future to be different. I have a sliver a hope that one day I will be enough and belong because of who I am.
